I restarted my Victoza/Saxenda adventure this week. Gotta love being a guinea pig for the doctor. Actually, I think I am the only one in the practice (patient or employee) on this medication.
I wanted to lose weight on my own. But, my binges have become uncontrolled. I hate that I am taking this shot, no matter how well it works.
A friend told me this is like taking pain meds for a headache. It isn't cheating. It is helping.
My hope is this becomes a habit. Not the shot taking but the eating part. I keep thinking, this must be what it is like for a normal human. Not wondering about the next course of food. Just eating a little when kind of hungry and moving on.
The first time I started the Victoza/Saxenda at 3.0mg, I was nauseated for a few days. I did lose 14lbs. Then, it felt like it stopped working after about 2 weeks. There were days I was barely eating 1200 calories. I used a longer needle for the pen one time toward the end of this stint. My sugars were staying low. It kind of scared me.
This time, I will make it through 3 weeks. 21 days for a habit to begin. This time I have had more issues keeping my blood sugar up. I have had some low blood sugars, but nothing a little peanut butter cant fix.
I know I am partially a hypocrite for hating on gastric bypass surgery but doing this shot. I know I have an eating disorder. I know I have an emotional eating issue. I am a binge eater. When I am "up", I have control. I need help when I am "down". When the demons are breaking the lock on the box.
So we shall see. I do know I like the Victoza pen better than the Saxenda pen. But thats just preference.
I have lost about 10lbs so far this week. Mostly fluid (gotta love hormones).
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