Week 9: weekn1 off glp-1

A week off of Victoza again. Did pretty good. Down to 296.5. But got a slight ear infection and went hormonal so I have been starving.

Week was stressful. Usual drama at work. I am burned out and exhausted. Family drama. Blah blah blah. Honestly, I have blocked out most of the week already.

I did have a couple people tell me I look really good. I look like I am losing weight. Not sure if it is the diet or the workout program.  Or both.

The current workout program is to be done 6 days a week starting next week. I am not doing that. I used to do Saturday too. But it exhausted me. Not doing anymore.

Ended the day on a binge.  I could not get enough to eat yesterday. I know it is hormones. It isnt me. So it is ok.  I gave myself a glp-1 shot today to prevent a further binge.

I also measured myself after 1 month of the transformation workout. 1/2" gone from my belly, upper arms, and thighs!  This is working!

Week 8: a week of nausea

Monday, I gave up and went back on the GLP-1 because I was stuck at 301.5. I didnt feel like my appetite was an issue, just tired of being plateaued for a month.

I am down 3lbs to 298.5 as of Friday.  Friday, I did splurge and try the monster cookie blizzard at DQ. It really isnt any good.  Saturday, I forgot my shot but did really well anyway. I was on the 2.4mg and wow did I feel nauseated!  About an hour after the shot I felt horrible for another hour.

Change of plans.  I think I might use Victoza in stressful times, long plateaus, and possibly Winter.

I am doing good with my food choices right now. I am making the choice because I want to, not because I have to.  I feel pretty good (other than the foot pain and muscle pain from over working at the gym).

Mentally, I am good.  I am allowing myself a cheat meal a week. I am not binging after the meal. Maybe it is the heat. Hopefully, it is me.

My fear is I have replaced over eating with over shopping. Amazon is killing me. 3 big orders in a week.  Now I must not order from them for a long time!  I have to get my finances in order!

I did try the UFC trainer for my wii.  It didnt work very well. I ordered the same thing for PS3. So we will see how it goes. I need to weed out my games and things. Trade some stuff in.

Here's to another good week!

Gave in...week 1 back on glp1

I gave in and am starting the Victoza again.  Not because of the appetite. My appetite is fine.  But because I am stuck in a plateau. Damnit.

Week 7: Week 3 off of GLP-1

So, I am trying to keep myself awake during UFC 200.  I have never been more bored with a main card...in, well, the 4 months I have been watching UFC.  I dont know what it is about MMA, but it has woken the sleeping giant.  I know I am too old and not going to be able to be on TUF or in a ring, but it makes me want to be fit.  It makes me want to lose the weight and cross off martial arts from my bucket list.  And, maybe even go to Vegas for the 5k for international fight week one year.

Doing well with my weight.  down to 300lbs with shoes on.  Appetite has been controlled.  I have started the protein shakes again.  Workouts have been burning 300+ calories each day this week.  I also did a 12 minute mile on the elliptical and 5 minutes (168 steps) on the stair mill.

I have been focusing on my diet and workouts to deal with the stress.  So far it is working.  I have been reading the Big Fat Truth some more as well.  I am not going to go back on the Victoza.  I need to do this myself.  I need to heal myself.  I need to forgive the Dead Roomie, Colorado Cunt, and Pittsburgh Pratt.  I am working on forgiving myself.  I am working on controlling the PTSD.  So far, I have been doing well.

I notice I have felt much better staying away from Facebook.  I am addicted to Pintrest, so that is giving me a bunch of ideas.  I just wish I could get my muscles to relax so my neck will stop hurting. 

I have filled the hole of eating with spending money.  Again.  I need to stop.  I need to deal with what I have. So I have been trying to get the PS3, Wii, and 360 working again so I can play video games.  Also, I need to try my Steam game console. 

I am so tired...2 fights left.  Hopefully they go quickly...

Week 6: 2nd week off Victoza

Last week was a blur.  My weight has remained stable-ish between 300-302.  I have been (mostly) able to control my diet. 

I did binge on Saturday, but that was due to overconsumption of alcohol.  Exercise has been stable. I am getting stronger.

Today, I was stressed and I did not give in to the temptation of coffee cake. Granted, i did eat more at dinner because I was so hungry.  Not having time to eat sucks.

Hopefully, I can break this plateau soon.  I am reading the Big Fat truth still, and I am debating on not using Victoza.  It is a crutch.  I dont like crutches.  But halfway through this cycle and I am doing much better (even if I am hungry right now).

Keep going forward.

Week 5: week 1 off Victoza, week 1 transformation

First week off of Victoza was not bad.  Appetite has not changed much.  I did hit 304, but I think it was fluid retention.  I also went over on my calories twice.  But again, hormones and beer.

Week was stressful.  My boss keeps making suicidal comments.  I cant deal with it.  I have my own mental issues.  I cannot handle other craziness.  Family issues are...insane as usual.

Work...is work.

Ambulance...same bullshit.

Maybe there is something for stability.

I tried a new program through Body Space.  First day I severely strained my pecs.  I even had bruises.  I tried to work out through it but took thursday and friday off from the gym.  Feels better with stretching.  I will try the program again from the beginning on monday.

I just wish I could sleep.

I did have 2 people tell me this week I look good.  So I need to use it as motivation instead of an excuse to binge.

Day 1 off Victoza

I was supposed to take my last Victoza shot today.  However, I got busy and forgot all about it. I went most of the day before I remembered.

So we will see how this works for 4 weeks off.  I lost 19lbs the first time, gained 12 back.  I lost 12 this time.  Hopefully, I wont gain any back.  It is summer (well, almost) and I am more active.  I just need to stay away from the alcohol and snacking.

I lost 56lbs without help.  I know I can do this.  I have to keep in mind why and how and be smart.