I am reading "The Big Fat Truth" by JD Roth. He has been the producer and inspirer on several of the weight loss shows. I don't normally buy books or items related to these shows because the shows give a false sense of weight loss in my opinion. But, this book jumped at me. I figured what the hell.
So far I like the book. It focuses on the mental and emotional part of weight loss. Or, in other words, why the hell I got into this mess in the first place.
First exercise: 4 reasons I am fat. So here I go...
1. Family influence. Half my family is morbidly obese. Everything centered around food. For some reason I always felt like I had to eat fast and as much as possible because there might not be any more food. I asked my mom about it and she doesn't remember ever giving me that idea. Maybe I picked up on it as an empath since times were tough when I was young. Food was everywhere. Both grandmother's fed me all the time. Ice cream, spaghetti, Salisbury steak, chicken nuggets, chicken noodle soup. My favorite Gma was 425lbs!
2. Bad eating habits. Eat when happy and sad. Hide all the feelings. Don't deal with the emotions.
3 & 4. Lack of love and respect for myself. I never learned to be OK with me. I was never good enough. Nothing I did wa ever good enough. I am not good enough. No one wants me around and when they do I wonder why. Why have the fat girl around? Oh! I know! So you feel better about yourself. Has nothing to do with how awesome i am. I don't love me. I never have.
All 4 things are officially excuses. Time to move forward.
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