Monday, June 13, 2016

The other secret

I have been thinking of my secrets.  The things I havent told anyone.

Lets see...

I smoked marijuana.  A couple times. Nothing major.  Most of my friends know, but not my family.

I have gone to a gay night club.  Male gay, for a party.  Nothing overly traumatic.

I have driven while drunk.

I used to cut.  Back in the days of the Dead Roomie.  She made me feel so horrible about myself.  Telling me how I was the worst thing to happen to her.  I lost control of my life and I cut my arms.  The feeling of the epidermal layer splitting along the edge of the knife...was orgasmic.  All my anger and pain was relieved for a few days.  As soon as she was out of my life, the knife never met my skin again.  I dont even miss it.

I slept with someone I just met.  Dead Roomie wanted to watch.  I couldnt do it.  Just eww.  Bad enough she was fucking her boyfriend in my bed.  Then, a few weeks later, sleeps with her girlfriend on the floor beside the sofa I was sleeping on. Just ewwwww!! A memory I wish I could forget!

There are probably more secrets.  I just cant think of them right now.

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